Avoiding Yourself

Most people go through each day in consistent and complete distraction because it is the easy way to live.  Being distracted means you never stop and focus on yourself.  To think about who you are is often hard and uncomfortable.  The result is that we then cannot let go of people, experiences, and possessions because that is what we have become or we are afraid of what will be left.

Without these things, we feel alone and afraid.  Fear sets in.  We can't listen to our own thoughts even for five minutes.  We must pick up the phone.  We must turn away from the show that makes us think about struggle and hardship.  We must find the bar.  We must watch the sports game.  We must eat the food.  We must work late.  We must avoid ourselves.

I personally have learned to enjoy the isolation because I am introverted and I like myself.  I have realized that I am struggling with connecting back to people, possessions and experiences. 

I know my truth but now I protect myself from others.

What am I protecting myself from?  Sometimes I think that if you are not even vulnerable with you, then we should not be vulnerable together.