You Can't Time Blessings

Ms. Nora has been busy moving around tonight...which has me thinking trying to get back into the gym. Just haven't had the energy to get back into it. This pregnancy I haven't had the morning sickness like most people think - but the extreme fatigue has been kicking my butt. I have never been so tired in my life and sometimes I wish for the energy but I know that my body needs the rest. I do the best that I can with what I have. Reminds me of when my ex told me I needed to get into better shape to be pregnant. While I am sure it is a good idea to be in good shape when you do conceive, I am not in horrible shape and I felt so depressed/defeated in that moment - body image is a major issue for most women I know. It was a low life moment for me for sure but it made me grateful for the man I have now who has never doubted the timing of our blessing. At my healthy weight, this isn't about whether or not I can bounce back into model shape so a man can look at me with lust and desire after childbirth. It is about trying to eat healthy and keep my mind in a positive state despite the mental and physical fatigue I must overcome on a daily basis. It's about the miracle of life and the opportunity to impact/shape a new life in a way that I hope will be a positive and net gain for the world.